My first confession was terrifying, and looking back on it with adult eyes, hilarious. I don't know if you ever read my piece titled "Confessions of a Recovering Catholic, but I talk about it in detail there. Here is the link of you are interested: https://medium.com/politically-speaking/confessions-of-a-recovering-catholic-7b0122fd243?sk=5ca48fd7664549bce02027f9735f486d