I could have written this. About a month ago, one of my closest friends died suddenly from a body worn out from daily drinking. I have lost my 2 of my closest friends, 2 old Army buddies, 2 old girlfriends, my brother, and 2 sisters all in the last 2 years. I realize just how few people from my younger days are left, and I am only 63. I remember my dad telliing me how lonely it had become. He outlived everyone he knew. He was a pallbearer in more funerals than he cared to remember. I don't know what to say except that you aren't alone. I get it.